... which brings new anxieties as I'm sure every mom and dad experience. There have been several times in the past couple of months that I've just been so anxious. I used to say that I'm not prone to worrying; that it's always been easy for me to trust the Lord. Ha! Just as the onset of marriage brought more of my sin to light, parenthood brings even more to the surface.
What if something bad happens? What if she can't breath? What if the worst happens?
Whenever these thoughts bounce around in my head, it's as if the Lord asks "Are you really trusting me? Are you really believing that I am sovereign? That I am taking care of Lucy? That whatever happens, it is my will and ultimately for your good?"
I feel as though in this new stage of Mommyhood, I am constantly reminded of of my sinful heart; how I am prone to worry, prone to anger, prone to laziness. Praise the Lord for His grace and His Spirit that allows me to conquer sin and start afresh a million times a day. I so need Him. I need Him to be the wife and mom that I want to be.
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